This is post 338.
Which tells me that I'm coming up on 365.
In my mind I'm patting myself on the back.
I came back here,
time and time again.
My emotions over the last 12 months
have waxed and waned.
Sometimes I questioned My 'Why'?
Why am I doing this?
Why would anyone care?
Why would anyone read my words?
Why would I think that people might?
I guess that last one isn't a why.
The last couple months filled with the hustle and stress of work life
has over taken the writing groove that I had sunk into during my year as a full time student.
I'm not going to lie,
it brings me down.
Not always having the time
or the energy.
I want to sink back into that groove.
the full time writers bubble.
It makes me subtly resentful ~
to have felt that I came SO Far
and then to so easily get pulled back into the lifestyle
that I was in before I took a leap to follow my dream.
So if you asked me today what's My 'Why'?
Coming here reminds me of that commitment I made
TO the little girl who wanted to grow up to be a writer
and tell stories on the screen.
I'm here for her.
And for you,
if you show up.
I'll keep showing up.
She deserves it.
Awww thank you for this 💗 Kudos to you for re-committing to you!
Please keep showing up! I have re-committed to writing every morning over hot lemon water - even if only for 15 minutes. You inspire me.^