This is it.
Page Three Hundred and Sixty Five.
I did it.
I actually f'n did it!
I set out with a goal,
That was based on a blurry vision,
that sat stagnate for over a year.
Until one sentence
of inspiration
brought me to this commitment
to myself
and to those who read this.
For all of the messages
and
words of confidence
and encouragement
that I received over the year
about this blog
from people I know
and
from strangers whom I don't,
I truly thank you
from the bottom of my heart.
This wasn't always easy.
To all of those people
who messaged me
or spoke to me
expressing
that I was their inspiration...
That I inspired them
to follow their dreams,
to make a commitment to themselves...
Wow!
Just Wow!
And Thank you!
I am so glad I could be a part of that for you
in any little way.
If by simply facing my fears,
I was able to help you face yours...
every minute that I spent writing this was worth it.
Your words,
the words that you shared with me,
which may have been hard to do,
are words
that I hold deep in my heart
with a warmth that I will never forget.
It's amazing the things that you learn
about life
and about people
when you go out on a limb.
When you Deviate from the routine.
Stray from the 'normal' mundane.
This commitment was at times a challenge.
I have a friend who was in tune with those days
and she let me know it.
But Always with love.
I learned that support doesn't always come from the places
that you think it will.
And as disappointing as that is,
the strong uplifting support
that comes from the places that you didn't expect
warms your heart more than you could ever imagine.
I learned that some
people who I thought were friends
are actually just colleagues or acquaintances.
And colleagues and acquaintances that I thought were just that,
are actually friends.
And don't read into this by thinking there was some big fall out in my life.
Or any dramatic events.
There wasn't.
It's just that this year I was more in-tune.
I paid attention more ~
to the subtleties.
I was more insync with myself
then I have been in a very long time.
Or perhaps even ever.
And when that cohesiveness between your head
and your heart
aligns with your soul,
you see things that perhaps you couldn't before.
And that's ok.
Being an adult isn't always easy.
Some truths are hard
and some truths hurt.
But the truths that fill your heart,
the truths that bring the joy,
the truths that bring a smile to your face
when you're sitting in a room all alone,
the truth of those people...
they are the people that you need in your life.
They fill the voids.
They shelter the crevices.
They are the stilts that hold you up.
And Those people,
they are the gold.
This year was a year of growth.
A year of change.
A year of chasing dreams
and crushing goals.
But was this year everything that I wanted it to be?
Was it everything that I needed?
Could I have made it better?
Could I have done more?
Tomorrow marks the New Chapter of the next 365 Pages.
So this blog will still be here.
I'm not going anywhere.
And I’ll be sure to try to Write a good one.
Happy New Year!
xo
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